One Day and then Another...

Laurennnn,

Hey Baby. I miss you so much. I'm pretty sure you know. I'm with your Mom and Poppy right now. Delilah is curled up next to me. I wish you were here, we could be drinking Starbucks and hooking up the Nintendo. But it won't be as much fun now because I don't get to hear you singing the song when we are in the castle "SIMPSONNSSS THE SIMPSSONNNS THERES BART LISA MAGGIE TOOOOO." haha where in the WORLD did we come up with that. Or whenever the regular song played and it would go "dunuh dun dunuh dun...POW!" and of course if we didn't say the POW it was a curse upon that entire level. We were so weird :). So I wen't to the movies with my brothers and we all had a great time. OH, so yesterday little Geoff punched me in the belly and I lost the ball to my favorite belly button ring : [ the one that reminded you of twilight! grrzz. Your bed is too comfy by the way, I was waiting for Uncle Geoff to come up to say goodnight last night and reading Midnight Sun in the meantime, and after I began a paragraph I woke up to realize I fell asleep halfway through it. At that point I decided to pass out, and I didn't wake up until this morning. PS- it's a lot easier sleeping with 1 doggy than the two, because I know we used to have a lot of trouble before getting trapped between both of them, but Delilah is really no problem to sleep with. Plus she's SO WARM! Zach and Jack are off mowing their lawn. I'm spending a bunch of time with Auntie today, which keeps me sane. [You know what I mean.] I miss you sweetie. Everytime I look at a picture I am overwhelmed. The most pure, amazing, sweet, loving, beautiful, happy, silly, PERFECT person I have ever know, was taken from my life. But I promise you Lauren, everything I am is so much better because of you. When I told you I looked up to you it was the complete and total truth. I keep thinking back to the very last text you sent me. It was the video of me just dancing around your bathroom acting like a complete idiot, but at least it made you smile :). I miss doing your hair, and makeup, getting in your pickup super early so you could get me to work. [LOL @ the one random day there was a million cars and traffic in our way and then it never happened again o.0] I don't know what to say babe. I need you back... I know you are the best place you could ever be, but its so hard waiting for my chance to be with you again. You were the light to my world and now everything is so dim. Everytime we go somewhere I feel like I am seeing a whole new place but its not half as beautiful as it used to be... I will never ever forget you though. That is one thing I know for sure. You are my soul mate. And for the rest of my life, the best thing I can hope is to one day be with you again. I love you best friend, baby girl, ya jerk ;].

"My heart is empty without you
Sometimes I don't know what to do.
And I need you tonight
I'll fall asleep and it's alright.
Close my eyes and I'll be by your side..."


I'll write again soon,
Sammimantha